It has been a rough few weeks as you all know my granddad was ill and had been diagnosed with cancer for the 3rd time but I am sad to say he passed away peacefully in his sleep, in the early hours of Friday on 4th November.
The last few weeks have been a mix of sadness, anger, frustration and trying to get on with our lives as best we can. My mum has done extremely well over the last fe weeks. She has been on autopilot for the last few months visiting him at hospital and doing her usual chores. But I am not sure if it has really sunk in yet.
I will miss my granddad a lot as I had a close relationship with him. From talking about football to just having a laugh. I still remember when he surprised me by joining us of a family holiday shortly after he won the lottery (it was only £24K but it was a big deal). We will cherish and hold on to the memories of the good times. I would like to thank everyone for their love and support.
This year was meant to be a year where I focused on my goals and ambitions and due to factors outside my control I have had to put things on hold. I am not sure what 2017 will bring (hopefully better fortunes than 2016) but I am more determined than ever to focus on me and what I want to achieve in life.
Despite the sadness of the last few weeks, I have had some highs in 2016. The best of which would be finally attending the Locarno Film Festival. It was an amazing experience and re-engergized my passion for film. I have booked a hotel to go back again next year and I cannot wait. It was also great to catch up with my friends from university for our 10 years reunion. It was such a success that we are going to try and do another next year.
I am not sure what else I will do in 2017. Work is pretty crazy as normal but I have no idea about anything else yet. Over the next few weeks I really need to work out what I need to do to achiev my goals. For me – considering everything than has happened – 2016 has not been the year I had hoped for. To many unknowns impacted my plans and I still feel I need to find the right work-life balance.
When you all look back the year, I hope for you all find that 2016 was filled with more joy than sadness and I wish that 2017 brings joy for everyone. I am going to be positive about 2017 as I have hope. It is also important to remember that adversity teaches us face our fears, fight our weaknesses and to break barriers to help us to be stronger and wiser.